You wake up, go to work, say hi-hello-good morning, go to lunch, back to work, go home, maybe take a walk, close your eyes, and repeat. But every night before you go to bed, you feel that creeping darkness-- that void of loneliness deep in your stomach. And may I say, F*@k that, and me too.
But what if the reason you feel so lonely every day isn't because something is wrong with you, or that you eat too many seed oils (whatever they tell us these days)...
What if you feel isolated... because you actually are?
The world isn't all a bad place, let's make that clear. I'm not one of those fear the news, anti-everything, types, but I have come to find that the world is what you make of it. And maybe, perhaps not even by fault of your own, you started living in a world that was built for someone completely different than yourself. You could be constantly surrounded by people who don't share your values, dreams, or morals. Instead of sketching off grid garden ideas or dreaming of building a commune for friends and family, you could be spending the majority of your time with people who simply don't dream of escaping the mundanity of corporate life like you do.
No hate, but if the idea of such an existence doesn't sound like it's for you, then it's probably going to be hard to form any sort of connection with those people. And if you spend all your time surrounded by those people? Well, it's no wonder you feel isolated.
So maybe you didn't choose this life. Maybe you fell into circumstances at some point or another and staying in them was a matter of survival. Maybe you went through some internal changes recently and your external environment didn't follow suit. Whatever the case, you are valid to feel disconnected.
So... what now?
Whether in Austin, Texas or in my rural hometown, I had always felt disconnected from my reality. In a way, I felt like I was just on my way to something bigger and that my life at the time was just a means to get there. It wasn't until I started connecting with the off grid, nomad community and the people down in Terlingua, TX, that I felt maybe I could be part of something.
I started sharing my story online in hopes of building a community of people like me. So, if you can relate to my experience, welcome to the club. We're happy to have you. And if you're struggling to cope with your life because you feel like it doesn't align with who you are -- you are not alone.